Snapped this shot at my me-morning a couple weeks ago! And since you’ve all been asking so many questions, I decided to write a little a bumpdate, which feels so crazy to be writing by the way! I wrote these throughout my first pregnancy, and while I had hoped to write a few more in my third trimester my kids surprised me with an early arrival, and I don’t know it just feels surreal I get to write one again! Lucky lucky me.
This pregnancy has felt so similar to my last. Although things started to get complicated in my twin pregnancy around 26 weeks so hopefully this pregnancy will feel different. And I have no idea what it feels like to be pregnant past 33 weeks so there’s that to look forward to (God willing)!
In my first trimester I was sick as a dog just like I was when pregnant with Slater and Zoe. It didn’t feel much different except that at some points I perhaps felt sicker because I didn’t have the luxury to sit on my booty and nap all day! Taking care of the twins was HARD and if I wasn’t utilizing help from my hub, mom, school, caretakers, etc., i was lying down on the floor while we did any activity. Mostly reading books. And eek the twins may have watched more tv during that period of time than they had in their whole life combined #survival. I was probably sick for all of October and most of November and finally emerged around Thanksgiving. All I wanted during these couple months was pb&j, cheesy food, and breakfast sandwiches. And I never knew exactly what I wanted until 5 min prior so there was a major boycott on cooking (the few times I did spend cooking a meal I didn’t end up eating it) and a whole lot of uber eats happening. Again, very similar to how I felt with the twins!
Since I entered my second trimester I feel good!! I have lots of energy, feeling motivated and productive, and finally working out after taking 3 months off (I wasn’t allowed to exercise leading up to and post IVF transfer and then just felt too ill when I was “cleared”). So I feel like I’m walking on sunshine with a ball of energy I haven’t been used to and the freedom to let it all out! Though I must say I still get real tired come mid day and need to sit that’s for sure. There’s still a lot less activities and outings and we’ve been doing a lot of things at home but a big positive difference from a couple months ago. I’m not eating everything but not convulsing over everything either. Currently loving cold crunchy salads, and starting to nibble at regular vegetables again! Still loving cheesy things, everything bagels and give me all the BBQ/ranch dressings, and mostly any saucey item. I love some cold watermelon and grapes too!
I have mixed emotions about this pregnancy overall. The only thing I know is my last experience. That came with lots of bedrest at home, bedrest in the hospital, delivery at 33 weeks, twins in the NICU, and then bringing two tiny premature babies home well before they were even due. So it’s hard to overlook that and not feel a load of anxiety and fear. On the flip side that pregnancy taught me so much. To trust, accept that I only have so much control over the life inside of me and just let go. God has a plan. I still look at my two children everyday (pregnant or not) in awe of how strong and healthy they are now. What we overcame together and what more we and I can handle ahead. Which is a LOT! So I’m feeing incredibly positive! That said, I am high risk given my history so I’m listening to my doctor and not pushing any limits I shouldn’t be. It’s just a few months of my life and so worth it for my babe, my family (and my mindset)!
That’s about it for now friends. Kids are asleep and I need to soak up all the rest (now that I think about it, this pregnancy has made me feel more tired than the last …probably because rather than the babes chillin on the inside of my big belly, they’re now running around on the outside, lol).
I’ll be back with more updates I’m sure!
